Hard to forget especially if I can't forgive. Impossible to forgive on any issue not freely discussed, unless minor or too old and not major (and not repeated). Makes for angry and anxious but mostly not misdirected. Still easy to not seek revenge (for most things; the odd hopefully educational comeback excluded) and easier not to hate by now (or I so feel for some years now).
Distance helps if they won't listen. Shit's gone too bad to constantly tolerate too stubborn close minded. And there's hordes of new those as fear rises.
Extra:
Almost every time I read your stuff I feel criticized for my inconsistency or sometimes ignorance and more. But in a mostly constructive way. I also often feel obliged to return the favor and there it gets rough. Not always capable of being unbarbarian or subtle. I'll refrain from doing so this time, already stripped too much like I naively(?) tend to do.
PS: Fuck everything "noble" or "elite"
PS 2: And a link above provides hints on why everyone is called b*** ?!
PS 3: This reminded me of those old wip lyrics:
I'm crying out for a better tomorrow / There's nothing left here but deathly excuse / No golden rule's bright enough to impress me / I've watched the mercenaries spreading the news
When is the time? who's standing with me? / To cross the line, to worlds unseen
What score? What's the meaning of it? / What score?
By chance born superior / Or met with privilege in life / What does it mean I deserve to abuse them/ Cause that's the way we civilize?
A teacher's guidance, a master's profit / Help me escape, from the self I'm bred to be
What score? What's the meaning of it? x3 / Fight the system and love
Reading this in the midst of a chronic, legal nastiness that has made me vicious and unkind. I can tell that I don’t like myself because looking in the mirror is more difficult. I feel like my body has changed. Like the ugliness I feel about someone else has transformed me. I appreciate your writing, as always.
On the subject and the interpersonal:
Hard to forget especially if I can't forgive. Impossible to forgive on any issue not freely discussed, unless minor or too old and not major (and not repeated). Makes for angry and anxious but mostly not misdirected. Still easy to not seek revenge (for most things; the odd hopefully educational comeback excluded) and easier not to hate by now (or I so feel for some years now).
Distance helps if they won't listen. Shit's gone too bad to constantly tolerate too stubborn close minded. And there's hordes of new those as fear rises.
Extra:
Almost every time I read your stuff I feel criticized for my inconsistency or sometimes ignorance and more. But in a mostly constructive way. I also often feel obliged to return the favor and there it gets rough. Not always capable of being unbarbarian or subtle. I'll refrain from doing so this time, already stripped too much like I naively(?) tend to do.
PS: Fuck everything "noble" or "elite"
PS 2: And a link above provides hints on why everyone is called b*** ?!
PS 3: This reminded me of those old wip lyrics:
I'm crying out for a better tomorrow / There's nothing left here but deathly excuse / No golden rule's bright enough to impress me / I've watched the mercenaries spreading the news
When is the time? who's standing with me? / To cross the line, to worlds unseen
What score? What's the meaning of it? / What score?
By chance born superior / Or met with privilege in life / What does it mean I deserve to abuse them/ Cause that's the way we civilize?
A teacher's guidance, a master's profit / Help me escape, from the self I'm bred to be
What score? What's the meaning of it? x3 / Fight the system and love
Reading this in the midst of a chronic, legal nastiness that has made me vicious and unkind. I can tell that I don’t like myself because looking in the mirror is more difficult. I feel like my body has changed. Like the ugliness I feel about someone else has transformed me. I appreciate your writing, as always.